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Hey I just wanted to show my newest banner for Love's Not a Competition but I'm Winning. I have been updating this story more often lately so I wanted to make a new Banner. I also have some photobucket albums for my stories as well. 

Love's Not a Competition but I'm Winning

High Hopes in Velvet Ropes

So here is the one I did

 

Here is the one my friend Paola did

Blasts from My Past

Well I used to be all into poetry. Hm, I still am but I don't write it as much but I thought that since this is my personal Blog, let me post some personal shit. So here are a few I did about a year or two ago.

Denial

When you touch me like this

It sends fire through my veins

When you touch me like that

It’s the only thing that’s keeps me sane

I try so hard to expel all of these feelings

But my heart, my body, my soul is what you’re stealing

I cannot deny you 

Even so hard I try

You’re like this drug

That’s only meant on keeping me alive

I’m addicted to you in more ways than one

Even after the taste of you I see my morning sun

I ask myself this everyday

Why do you have this hold over me?

It makes it harder and harder to go on

Like I’m drowning in your sea

But when I look into your eyes

Only more questions arise

Does he love me the way I do him?

Does his heart ache when I go?

Do I send shivers down his spine?

Does he crave my body so?

These are the things I think of when I see you

But you are my earth, my heaven, and my hell too

I’m trapped in this world

Between love and lust

Longing and pining 

But not knowing which one to trust

Do I listen to my gut or do I listen to my brain?

It makes the addiction to you even so harder to retain

Loving you is all I know

It is all I am, it is all I will ever be

Just being in your world 

Is divine and heavenly

To be taken away will surely be the death of me. 

3 Minutes

She looked around while she waited

Waited the 3 minutes to decide her future

A future she no longer controlled

Controlled now by a night of passion

A night she will never forget

But why has he forgotten?

Forgotten the way he held me in his arms

The way he dazzled me with his eyes

The way that he said my name and I his

The way out hearts beats were in sync

The way we became one in body and soul

There was no doubt that I loved him

There was no doubt in trust

I felt safe

Safe enough to walk through fire 

Safe enough to do what I knew was wrong

Because there was no wrong when all I knew was him

Everything about him was right to me

His eyes

His smile

His hair and touch

These things about him that now only lived in my memory

He is no where to be found

He left without a word

Never even caring about what he left behind

What he planted in that night of uncontrollable passion

So now my 3 minutes are up and it’s time to see

What I know is true but I can not believe

I could have been wiser

I could have been braver 

But now it’s too late

One night a passion

He has the memories

Now I have the results

It lasted one night in his mind

And it will last a lifetime in his child’s and mine

Yours

As we lay hand in hand I wonder

I wondered about all the times you called my name

And the times when I felt your touch

A touch that sent fire to my bones

And the coolness your breath left on my neck

As we lay side by side I drift

I drift looking into those wonderful eyes

Eyes that searched every inch of my body

A body that no longer belongs to me

That never belonged to me

Your touch on this body is unbearable.

It sends me to the point of no return

I crave and yearn for it but shy away at the same time

I beg for your lips to touch mine so I can feel whole

And only when we are as one I am this way

HEARTS

They can be torn and worn down

They can be repaired and work like new

They are one of the strongest things in our bodies

But I can't seem to give mine to you

I wish I could but I'm just scared

Not sure what would happen if you weren't there

Would my heart go with you

Or would it just burst

I wanna give it all to you

But I just can't stand the hurt

So here I go giving it to you anyway

Putting myself, my soul, and my heart on the line

So here I am asking you to be mine.

Loneliness

I think of all the times I’ve cried

All the times you left me part of me had died

Your voice I can barely remember 

And your touch that was ever so tender

The way “I love you” rolled off your tongue

But never hearing it again is what really stung

You said always and I thought it would last

But I wasn’t ready for the pain that just won’t pass

My heart breaks into pieces when I think of you

Feeling lost in this world not knowing what I should do

Rolling in my bed feeling the empty space

Knowing the emptiness in my heart is something I don’t want to face

Memories are all that I can cling to now

They are the only things that my heart can bare to allow

You tore me down with just one action

But does knowing I’ll never be the same bring you satisfaction?

You were everything and anything I ever wanted

But I built you up and you took that for granted

I felt the distance and I felt the cold

Maybe if I was better or if I had a tighter hold

Was it me that pushed you away?

Or was I too blind to see you never wanted to stay?

I saw the signs but I didn’t want to admit

That maybe I loved you more than you were willing to commit 

My love was all I had to give

And with that you held my heart captive

But now in its place is this pit of despair 

I have to move on with my life and look elsewhere

The imprint you left on me will never erase 

And this newfound loneliness is something I have to embrace

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Eclipse Trailer. David Slade.... we need a pow wow.

Well hello! Okay this is the first time really I am posting a personal blog on this blog but I felt that this needed to be put out there.

ATTENTION! ATTENTION! ECLIPSE TRAILER!! See it first:

Okay I know many of you probably thought that was the next coming of christ or something. Me? What the FUCK was that shit? Now, I know I am the first to admit I am a fangirl through and through. But I am also a SMART fangirl. I am not going to just eat anything they throw at me because it has the Twilight stamp of a approval on it.

From that you can probably guess I am NOT a fan of the trailer. I was very very disappointed in it. 

Usually when you make a trailer for a movie you put your best bits in that trailer to attract film goers. Now if you are saying that those were the best bits in the movie, I am going to be very disappointed in Eclipse. I think that the producers have gotten lazy. They are resting on the fandom to just take whatever they give because yet again it is stamped with Twilight.

Okay on to the so called highlights of the trailer.... *crickets* Exactly. All this trailer had was fluff, fluff, and you guessed it, More Fluff! And not even the good kind that makes you feel good inside. It was more like "How many scenes can we fit in with Edward almost grabbing Bella's ass" and "How many seconds can we get of Taylor shirtless on screen" Yeah not something that I want to go see. However because I admit again I am a fangirl I will go see this because I have been brainwashed and it's hard to get your brain back after it has been washed.

And where you ask are the things that made Eclipse some people's favorite book? Who fucking knows! All we got is bad wig after bad wig after bad wig. I understand that Kristen cut her hair for another role, Bryce is not Rachelle, and Jackson also had hair not fit for Jasper, but COME ON! Twilight: Domestic Total Gross: $192,769,854! New Moon: Domestic Total: $296,332,608! Could we NOT afford some good looking hair or some good quality wigs? I see girls on the street with better weaves than THAT shit!

And speaking of Jasper, where the HELL were the other characters in this movie? I know this movie didn't consist of just these two. Bravo for the addition of Renee and Charlie. But there are a LOT of fans out there that like to see a few of the cullens every once in a while.

Maybe I'm being a bit premature in my slam of the trailer. Maybe there might be a better one with better screen shots down the rode. But in a world where we have movies like Avatar and Alice in Wonderland, those half ass trailers is not going to cut it. You need to put your best foot forward. And what they are showing me is some webbed toed club foot. 

GET IT TOGETHER PEOPLE!