Saturday, October 9, 2010


Monday, June 21, 2010

New Banner!

Hey I just wanted to show my newest banner for Love's Not a Competition but I'm Winning. I have been updating this story more often lately so I wanted to make a new Banner. I also have some photobucket albums for my stories as well. 

So here is the one I did


Here is the one my friend Paola did

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Blasts from My Past

Well I used to be all into poetry. Hm, I still am but I don't write it as much but I thought that since this is my personal Blog, let me post some personal shit. So here are a few I did about a year or two ago.


When you touch me like this
It sends fire through my veins
When you touch me like that
It’s the only thing that’s keeps me sane
I try so hard to expel all of these feelings
But my heart, my body, my soul is what you’re stealing

I cannot deny you 
Even so hard I try
You’re like this drug
That’s only meant on keeping me alive
I’m addicted to you in more ways than one
Even after the taste of you I see my morning sun

I ask myself this everyday
Why do you have this hold over me?
It makes it harder and harder to go on
Like I’m drowning in your sea
But when I look into your eyes
Only more questions arise

Does he love me the way I do him?
Does his heart ache when I go?
Do I send shivers down his spine?
Does he crave my body so?
These are the things I think of when I see you
But you are my earth, my heaven, and my hell too

I’m trapped in this world
Between love and lust
Longing and pining 
But not knowing which one to trust
Do I listen to my gut or do I listen to my brain?
It makes the addiction to you even so harder to retain

Loving you is all I know
It is all I am, it is all I will ever be
Just being in your world 
Is divine and heavenly
To be taken away will surely be the death of me. 

3 Minutes

She looked around while she waited
Waited the 3 minutes to decide her future
A future she no longer controlled
Controlled now by a night of passion
A night she will never forget

But why has he forgotten?
Forgotten the way he held me in his arms
The way he dazzled me with his eyes
The way that he said my name and I his
The way out hearts beats were in sync
The way we became one in body and soul

There was no doubt that I loved him
There was no doubt in trust
I felt safe
Safe enough to walk through fire 
Safe enough to do what I knew was wrong
Because there was no wrong when all I knew was him
Everything about him was right to me

His eyes
His smile
His hair and touch
These things about him that now only lived in my memory

He is no where to be found
He left without a word
Never even caring about what he left behind
What he planted in that night of uncontrollable passion

So now my 3 minutes are up and it’s time to see
What I know is true but I can not believe
I could have been wiser
I could have been braver 
But now it’s too late

One night a passion
He has the memories
Now I have the results
It lasted one night in his mind
And it will last a lifetime in his child’s and mine


As we lay hand in hand I wonder
I wondered about all the times you called my name
And the times when I felt your touch
A touch that sent fire to my bones
And the coolness your breath left on my neck

As we lay side by side I drift
I drift looking into those wonderful eyes
Eyes that searched every inch of my body
A body that no longer belongs to me
That never belonged to me

Your touch on this body is unbearable.
It sends me to the point of no return
I crave and yearn for it but shy away at the same time
I beg for your lips to touch mine so I can feel whole
And only when we are as one I am this way


They can be torn and worn down
They can be repaired and work like new
They are one of the strongest things in our bodies
But I can't seem to give mine to you
I wish I could but I'm just scared
Not sure what would happen if you weren't there
Would my heart go with you
Or would it just burst
I wanna give it all to you
But I just can't stand the hurt
So here I go giving it to you anyway
Putting myself, my soul, and my heart on the line
So here I am asking you to be mine.


I think of all the times I’ve cried
All the times you left me part of me had died
Your voice I can barely remember 
And your touch that was ever so tender
The way “I love you” rolled off your tongue
But never hearing it again is what really stung

You said always and I thought it would last
But I wasn’t ready for the pain that just won’t pass
My heart breaks into pieces when I think of you
Feeling lost in this world not knowing what I should do
Rolling in my bed feeling the empty space
Knowing the emptiness in my heart is something I don’t want to face

Memories are all that I can cling to now
They are the only things that my heart can bare to allow
You tore me down with just one action
But does knowing I’ll never be the same bring you satisfaction?
You were everything and anything I ever wanted
But I built you up and you took that for granted

I felt the distance and I felt the cold
Maybe if I was better or if I had a tighter hold
Was it me that pushed you away?
Or was I too blind to see you never wanted to stay?
I saw the signs but I didn’t want to admit
That maybe I loved you more than you were willing to commit 

My love was all I had to give
And with that you held my heart captive
But now in its place is this pit of despair 
I have to move on with my life and look elsewhere
The imprint you left on me will never erase 
And this newfound loneliness is something I have to embrace

Saturday, March 27, 2010

My Banner work









Thursday, March 11, 2010

Eclipse Trailer. David Slade.... we need a pow wow.

Well hello! Okay this is the first time really I am posting a personal blog on this blog but I felt that this needed to be put out there.


Okay I know many of you probably thought that was the next coming of christ or something. Me? What the FUCK was that shit? Now, I know I am the first to admit I am a fangirl through and through. But I am also a SMART fangirl. I am not going to just eat anything they throw at me because it has the Twilight stamp of a approval on it.

From that you can probably guess I am NOT a fan of the trailer. I was very very disappointed in it. 

Usually when you make a trailer for a movie you put your best bits in that trailer to attract film goers. Now if you are saying that those were the best bits in the movie, I am going to be very disappointed in Eclipse. I think that the producers have gotten lazy. They are resting on the fandom to just take whatever they give because yet again it is stamped with Twilight.

Okay on to the so called highlights of the trailer.... *crickets* Exactly. All this trailer had was fluff, fluff, and you guessed it, More Fluff! And not even the good kind that makes you feel good inside. It was more like "How many scenes can we fit in with Edward almost grabbing Bella's ass" and "How many seconds can we get of Taylor shirtless on screen" Yeah not something that I want to go see. However because I admit again I am a fangirl I will go see this because I have been brainwashed and it's hard to get your brain back after it has been washed.

And where you ask are the things that made Eclipse some people's favorite book? Who fucking knows! All we got is bad wig after bad wig after bad wig. I understand that Kristen cut her hair for another role, Bryce is not Rachelle, and Jackson also had hair not fit for Jasper, but COME ON! Twilight: Domestic Total Gross: $192,769,854! New Moon: Domestic Total: $296,332,608! Could we NOT afford some good looking hair or some good quality wigs? I see girls on the street with better weaves than THAT shit!

And speaking of Jasper, where the HELL were the other characters in this movie? I know this movie didn't consist of just these two. Bravo for the addition of Renee and Charlie. But there are a LOT of fans out there that like to see a few of the cullens every once in a while.

Maybe I'm being a bit premature in my slam of the trailer. Maybe there might be a better one with better screen shots down the rode. But in a world where we have movies like Avatar and Alice in Wonderland, those half ass trailers is not going to cut it. You need to put your best foot forward. And what they are showing me is some webbed toed club foot.